For one of my MBA classes we had to write a Personal Mastery Paper (this basically forced us to think about our next 5-10 years and where we would like to be in the future). One the exercises was to form a "Board of Directors" for your life. I picked my wife, my father, 2 friends, King David (from the Bible), and Steve Jobs. The following is the paragraph explaining the Jobs pick.
"I have filled the last two spots with people that I would like to get to know, so I have extended an invitation to them for a seat on my board. The first is Steve Jobs, the co-founder and CEO of Apple Inc. Mr. Job’s story in business is nearly mythical. The young arrogant hothead that gets himself kicked out of his own company is able to work himself back into it. He turns Apple around at it’s darkest hour, making it one of the top brands globally. His sense of style is legendary and simple. I could learn a lot from his experience. I like the impact he has had on design; I wish my whole house could be designed in white, black, and aluminum, with clean, simple lines. I feel like I need more of that kind of elegant simplicity, and he could help."
After putting a up a good front last night and most of today, I must admit I have shed some tears over the loss of Mr. Jobs. (I'm actually embarrassed - I never met the man). I am self comforting by thinking that I'm sad because I don't think he was a Christian, and not being able to see him in Heaven is a loss personally and eternally.
However, the fact of matter is this - Steve Jobs is probably the closest thing to a personal hero I have ever had. I admired his passion. He lived unconcerned with what the rest of the world thought. He lived with a clear vision of what he was meant to do with his life. We all benefitted from it. He helped design some of the coolest gadgets ever. I have been able to make a living spreading the "Apple Gospel," winning converts to Macs, iPods, iPhones and iPads.
I know that part of my sadness is tied up in the "lack of greatness" in my own life. I ultimately I want Christ to be able to say the things of me I have just said of Jobs. I want to live deliberately each day and do what I have been put on this Earth to do. I want to exploit my passion and live un-emcombered by the chains of the world. (However it would have helped to be a millionaire in my early twenties).
Well, it seems I need to go back and read the rest of my Personal Mastery Paper. I have some greatness to find, passion to unleash, and fears to shed. With God's help all things are possible.